the road less travelled by...

pardon the pathetic picture quality

but this was taken at 11.30 a.m. before our 12.00 p.m. Land Law lecture in our lecture hall

a good half an hour before classes commence and the front seats are fully reserved

amusing how despo we law students can be for front seats in lecture halls

oh how i miss the kiasu-ness

i just thought that it was funnily amusing lol

i wonder does this happens in other universities/colleges

hmmm…

you know how the past generation tells us that:

we must dream big, we must dream high to be successful

not only we must dream, we must believe in our dreams that it will one day come to pass

i dream

and i dream a lot

growing up as daddy’s girl

growing up around daddy’s office

growing up running around the big black table sitting on daddy’s big brown chair

growing up wondering how it felt like to wear the funny-white-hair-thing that daddy had on his head on his graduation picture

growing up flipping through daddy’s law journals kept at home even at a young age

despite the fact that being a lawyer was never my first dream

i would not deny that i had always admired how smart daddy looked when he is fully dressed to court :)

being inspired by daddy

i dreamt of taking place in a law firm as a qualified lawyer

i dreamt of taking charge of a law firm

i enjoyed every single second i had at work despite all the hard work involved

weird to say but i enjoyed myself rushing through deadlines and getting to go to court and all

soon enough i’m in love with the job itself no matter how much daddy tried to persuade me out of it

most of my friends dread graduation

i anticipate graduation

most of my friends dread the working life

i cant wait to start my career life

i’m literally living in the future

then again reality hits hard telling me that:

1. my UCAS application deadline is coming up and i’ve not done my personal statement

2. assignments are due in dec and i have only done “some” research

3. i’m suppose to bring all my notes and charts back but i’m quite behind schedule

4. i have a year 2 exam to score in order to save my not-so-good year 1 results

i enjoy picturing myself handling real life cases

i enjoy picturing myself in the full business suit

i enjoy dreaming of how i would love to work in huge law firms like what i watched in Boston Legal

i wished i could one day work in such a professional and prestige firm

for me,

being a lawyer isnt about the money

neither is it about the glamour and the fame

being a lawyer seems more like a dream than anything else

i had lots of plans and dreams for my future career

i even made up my mind to go into practice

nevertheless,

it did pass my mind to work someplace else to gain some outside experience before going back to daddy’s firm to work

it did pass my mind to learn things from other firms be it staff management, client management, various types and areas of cases

but my heart aches when i hear about the stress daddy is going through dealing with all those heavy cases :(

i guess i would still be running back immediately hoping to ease his struggles

hang on k daddy?

if there is something that keeps me going now, i would say this would be it

my dream to graduate well

my dream to do the bar

my dream to be a good and successful lawyer

my dream to do daddy proud :)

i finally got my motivation

i finally got something to look at to keep me going

back to research, study, reading and more research, more studying and much more case and article readingSSS :)

everybody knows dreaming isnt everything

everybody knows dreaming without hardwork would not get you pass your exams

everybody knows a dream will remain a dream until the day it comes to pass

when you get snapped back into reality

you find your motivation in your dream

now seeing the bigger picture

i shall try to laze no more

“The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams”

-Eleanor Roosevelt-

just last week over legal practice we had this discussion on transexuals and the legal sides of whether the law should allow them to change their gender details in legal documentations

while i was quite disgusted to hear about such issues going on even in malaysia (although not as widespread as other countries)

somehow it still troubles my heart to see more and more transexuals as well as homosexual activities arising over recent years

there is always two sides to any story you hear

one side you have people upholding and claiming for human rights

another side you have people disgusted and repelling against such activities and actions or the people involved in such activities

if you ask me

i would take a more what people say religious stand point on it and am disgusted by such activities

however i would still think that these people are nevertheless still human beings and should be treated as human beings

but does that really mean we would/must accept their actions and behaviours?

it amuses me how much the world and society has evolved and developed over the centuries

we never heard of such homosexual/transexual cases in the past what more to say hearing about people actually struggling with such tendencies

the world is changing and it is getting scarier by the day

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by the way,

i read this while doing my news reading on e-newspapers for legal news :P

how much weirder can cases be nowadays

weird but i find it amazing that such cases actually happen in real life

i guess dramas and movies do come true after all

or is it people are getting better in writing scripts seeing weird stuff around them :P

currently in week 4 of my 1st semester of year 2 in law school

it has been bittersweet i’d say

first 4 weeks had been rather easy going other than occasional tutorial preparation days

classes had been fun and occasionally funny at some point  of times

workload..not quite there yet..

but i still do need to put some effort in getting myself OUT of technology hunting mode INTO law studying and reading mode

which means i really ought to consider shutting down my lappy to sit down and read evidence..

real evidence.documentary evidence.legal burden.evidential burden.burden of proof.standard of proof

why does the general rule have to have so many exceptions?

beats me :)

the internet has been pathetic

but i’m happy that i could at least log in my farmville to harvest all my crops and replant them :D

it has been 2 weeks since year 2 officially started

things have been going pretty slow but it would be increasing its pace within a few more weeks time

that should be when assignments would be pouring in i guess

till then,

i’m still making sense out of the 5 subjects that i have to take

and the only subject that is keeping my chins high and hopes up is perhaps legal practice

legal practice workshop so far had been simply enlightening

listening to all those stories about working, pupilage.. (smack me.. i’m dreaming again)

perhaps that is the only reason why i’m still holding on

but as for the other 4

hmm.. other than occasional oohs and ahhs while reading the textbook

i’d say i’m still looking for a way around this 4 subjects

classes had been going fine and i still have to say my timetable is awesome despite the fact i have classes on saturday afternoons :S

sad isnt it?

oh well i’ll just have to put up with it till the end of semester 1 but i really dont mind going for legal practice lectures :P haha

nothing specific to update since all i have been doing for these 2 weeks had been

eating, sleeping, reading, watching dramas, eating, sleeping, reading and that pretty much sums up everything

just hoping that it would all be worthwhile by the end of the semester :)

i had a long long chat with my high school buddies on msn yesterday

the thought of it makes me miss them even more

4 of us in 4 different parts of the globe

having different time of holidays

i really miss the times we spent together

celebrating birthdays, talking crap, laughing out loud, studying, playing, joking, doing projects

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i have been thinking a bit too much again

but never seem to be able to organise my thoughts

in evidence tutorial today we had this discussion about whether we should be using our brain or our heart to make a decision

some said we should use our brain

some said we should use our heart

using your brain meaning you judge/decide on a situation based on what you think, logic, reasoning as well as what you see

using your heart meaning you go along with how you feel about the current situation and what you feel what you should do, your emotions

then again emotions cant be trusted all the time

your brain tells you cannot have it but your heart desires otherwise

your brain tells you should not do something but your heart longs to do the same

your brain and logic tells you to put everything down but your heart cant seem to do the same

your brain tells you to focus but your heart seems to be flying someplace else

your brain tells you that doing so will hurt you but you heart is still willing to take the risk

i really dont know anymore about this brain and heart battle

your heart tells you that you should trust but your heart remains doubtful

after seeing so much going on

after witnessing so much

i really do not know which to believe anymore

i’m tired of this sort of game

very very tired